Digestion

Life could not digest me
So I pulled it out for just this time
Yeah

I'm stepping out of life
So I'm pullin out this time
Yeah

I imagine this is how a burn victim feels
So I'm pulling out for good
Yeah

Mother's Day

I will regret it for the rest of my life
But hell, what's another regret?
Put 'em on the pile, learn to forget
Killing life with lies and silences

Why, O why, mother?
Did you only think of yourself?
Have you never known of the suicide rates?

Abort, abort, before it begins

Did it never occur?

That agony will pay for all your sins

Paying debts with nothing bought

Life's a lesson never taught

Bring me out before for your eyes

Eyes burnt blind by a sun so bright

A day to appreciate my given health

When all you gave me was a slow death

Mother, O mother,

Death awaits you too

But never, my mother,
Will I forgive you

Post-sleep

I don't know what to do
As sleep didn't save me
Cause when I woke up
There was no one beside me
You're still far away and you won't even speak to me

A big black empty space in bed
A black hole where you used to be
I'm sorry for whatever I did
I can't seem to get a hold of me
I can't seem to be someone else
Or good enough to save myself

You don't have to love me back
Just don't be gone forever like all the rest

Lonely Highway / Summer's End

Don't you know
I haven't lead a life to believe
I haven't led a life worth living
As I picture myself in a book or a film
But damn, that's something my life will never be in

I can't wait no more
The crops have come and gone
Died and went beyond
Leaving frozen ground to slip upon
I gotta get out
Before I hit summer's end
I gotta get out
Cause my life's running out again

This time I caught me staring at me
Just like the times before
There's just me and me and me
Gotta let myself know
No one's gonna keep you in their thought
No one's gonna ever pick you up
Gotta walk this lonely highway
Like there's no place left to go

Handsome Noose

Don't give up, boy
There's too much to lose
But when you wake up only
To a sleeping pill and some booze
My dreams can't ever come true
My shadow hangs low in a handsome noose

Ocean Floor

And we'll swim to the ocean floor
And we'll find no open doors
And we forgot we nailed the windows shut
When we lost the word that we could trust

Swear for ones sake
Let love prevail
Showered me in pain
Let this not have been in vain

Weather

The sun is warm to the skin
But the cold winds come after

Shower yourself in love
Tremble not in fear
So tell me, dear,
Was it worth it?

Stay In Bed

Stay in bed
From this day
Until my last
May it come soon

The dawn is breaking
Once more shall life show
But I shall not
I'll stay in bed
From this day until my last
May it come soon

There Goes the Light

Another specially designed coffin
A bed for a child, a meadow for a sheep
A small coffin for another ruined life
Another lit candle, losing what was bright
Because it was too cold and alone
And a candle can't survive, so there goes the light

Dead Living

I don't sing songs of lost love
I sing of love not received at all

All the great poets and lyricist
They had and so they lost
I lay here on my own
As my soul starts to frost

Born dead, baby skeleton in a cradle
Dead living for the living dead
Just another horse in the stable

Dead Crow

Cars drive by one a lonesome highway
The leaves they fell like tears on my face
Now the snow has come and gone
And the life that was is now but hollow bones

I'm just a dead crow at the side of the road

Then spring came and so did the birds
The sun shun, flowers bloomed but by then I was just dirt
The sun kept shining, the life was lived
But not by me, I was but dirt in the street

Driver

No driver at the wheel
I'm taking a ride with my best friend
He feels what I feel
I'm taking a ride by myself

He's unreliable but he's all I've got
Pretending to like him doesn't work
When I need him he's nowhere to be seen
We hate each other, he's no longer a teen
Take the damn wheel, we can't go on this way
Let the damn thing crash, is all he can say
Why don't you take it yourself, you defend
I can't help but to rely on my best friend

No driver at the wheel
We're far off the tracks, me and him
He sees what I see
Crash and burn within
The tires break, my friend escapes
The needy bitch died all alone

Ashes in the Wind (Eyelids)

Throughout all my life,
As I breathe and sin
Keep in mind that no matter how bright
The sun will set just like eyelids

Like ashes in the winds
You wage a war you cannot win
And the best of loves will too cave in
And the life was lost when I ceased to begin
And as I am, as I fall in,
I am ashes in the winds

Bones

Defend your castle
With all your might
I won't get through
The sea will wash my bones away

Cut me down
Burn me up
Leave me be
The sea will wash my bones away

Watch me burn
See me scream
Look at me
Before the sea will wash my bones away

Greenhouse

You are my love
I'm imprisoned, you're my warden
My secret garden
The greenhouse, my graveyard
You are my box,
My sun and stars

I enjoy a good killing
Just like any other
Who's to blame here?
The mother and father?
Anyone at all?
Do you blame me for life?
I have always been small
In a world too bright

I just put them where they belong
From what they came, a worm
To be devoured in a song
A worm for a worm, a world for a world
In my secret garden
My greenhouse
My graveyard

Apologies

I'm sick of apologies
But I am and I will always be
'Cause I may mean well
But I was born in this human hell
And I'm fucked in the head
It must've been something I said
So for forever, my sympathy
And as always, I am sorry

Zero

Empty skies, are filled with stars
Zero is a also number
An empty room is filled with air