Tide

The tide waves are coming in
The clouds have showered my every dream
Terrible things are threatening me
I will lose my mind if I keep standing here
Flowers are growing from my grave
They grow and shine in the summer day
They'll wither and die, I'm sure
When the cold wind blows in the dark winter

At Home

I miss my home
I never really felt alone
Arrows fly across the globe
I remember when I was at home

I died at home
I have never felt so alone
Arrows flew into my bones
I remember when I was at home

I will cry knowing
That I've lost it all
I will never be able to look back
I will never ever feel at home

Win/Win

I'm so sick of being this
I'm trained to not feel a thing
Nothing to lose, nothing to win
Nothing to win, nothing to win

Clouds

Sick of taking care of everyone

Sparing lives that I have never felt

The river's running dry

The mind is running low

I have never felt anyone

I can hardly bare with you

The clouds feel soft 

When I touch them

When I fly through

They disappear

Launching

This is the beginning
Of the end
I don't know what's coming next
But I'm not sure if I care


I'm firing off
Launching
All these terrible notions
Fueling me
This one last ride


Nothing is good enough
I'm taking off
Into space

Drunk

I'll come home drunk again
And regret everything
You fell out of love
My heart cost it all

How could you do that
How could you say those things
Then just take it back

I'll come home all alone
What's the rush
There's nothing at all
You left, now there's no soul
Your heart cost me too much

Isolated

Isolated from the world
I try to stand but the wind hurls
I might just stay where I was conceived
I have not died, because I have not lived

Spinning the world around
I forgot what my mission was
Taking turns on a shining bright
Floating close but never in sight

I have not died, because I have not lived
I will stay were I was conceived
It won't be long, it won't be long now
The world is spinning out of control

Leaving

I'm leaving

And I'm left with my torn head

I'm leaving

And I'm giving up on this life so fed

I'm leaving

And I'm left with my pills

I'm leaving

I'm left with a stone cut hell

I'm leaving

But I think I left quite some time ago

I'm leaving

I don't think it will affect anyone

I'm leaving

But I have no place to go

Morgue

Wherein lies the happiness
I must've lost key to the chest
Forget about it or destroy it
Tear the world apart
With a shadow-filled and broken heart
Lost my faith in people long ago
I've lived a life such as Achilles toe

The weather prognosis shows death
The respirator knows better than to tamper with that
So when I come, drive me straight to the morgue instead
Saving me is just saving yourself

Drowned

Are you gone?
Where are you now?
My body drowned
My heaven fell down
I'm trapped in this world
There's one way out, I have heard

Uuuhhh
Uuuuhhh
Uuuuuhh
I drowned before my body sunk

You left me alone
How far have you gone?
I'm pleased you are doing well
I just wish it'd be me there
And not trapped in this hell

We sailed for a lifetime in our heads
Forever and ever, we said
How could I have let you go?
I was wrong, I was wrong
Why did you let her down?
You killed yourself, and then you drowned

Oooohh
Aahhhhh
Uuuhhhh
I died before my body sunk

Moving On

I've lost the only break I ever caught
It spread it's wings
And flew away
Far away
Away from here

Moving on



Once again the summer winds blow
The winter comes
The birds they flee
Flee away
It's time to go


Moving on


I'm standing here all on my own
I've got two feet
And no loving
No willing
No place called home

Still

I still think about you every day
Despite it all, I feel the same way
I can't accept that we're not intact
We were the only beauty that I ever had
We were so close and so invincible
And despite all fights, we conquered it all

But no more fights,
and no more kisses
No more cries
And no more misses

Waking up each day stuck in a nightmare
The only fear I never had is leaving me in despair
What we had were more true than any words could describe

I'll keep on denying,
keep on crying
Keep on living
keep in dying
I'll keep on dreaming
I'll keep on trying
To relive our magic, but it's blood has dried
I'm stuck in time and dead inside

I miss you, Kitteh
I will never survive

Choice

I have no right to live
I have no right to die
I don't understand society
It's a dying mans last sigh

The modern world
Controls the roads
The toll is too high
and I've got no goals
Set the bar so high
That no one gets close
Forbid them to die
and to have a choice

I'll crash the worlds parties
And break all the rules
I'll live my life for me
And I'm captured in my body
But in my mind I am free

Blame

Born without a name
Dead beneath the stains
Of a time lost and forgotten
Just a corpse, faded and rotten

And when I see myself in the mirror
I see a face with eyes burning with her
A crowned life turned upside down
A life once lived but now makes no sound

I made the mistake to invite you up to dance
I dug my own grave when I took your hand
Even now, when she have abandoned me
I can't blame her, I am worthless, indeed

Walls

This tumor in my mind
I can feel it growing
I am helplessly drowning
It is eating me alive

Four walls and no windows
A floor, a ceiling but no door

This tremor in my fish bowl
I can feel it getting closer
I am helplessly screaming
But no one is anywhere close

Four walls and no windows
A floor, a ceiling but no door

Cancer

Cut this cancer out of my brain

Electrocute me, eject this pain

What is it that you see

That makes you fucking feel

Something good inside

Being worth your while

There must be something that I've missed

Desperate to feel anything but this

At Loss

I'm close to giving up
I've gone over again and again
I'm at loss with nothing to win
What could've been, what could've been

Dark clouds surround the sun
Chokes it out, I'm on the run
The shadows stalk me here within
What could've been, what could've been

I can't help but to see
To paint us up in my memory
Nightmares and daymares, forever grim
What could've been, what could've been

Black Picket Fences

I've been waiting for you
Waiting for you to come home
Waiting in vein,
Waiting for you
to come to your senses
But you built black picket fences
And my head is trapped on each pole

I've been waiting for you
Waiting to be released
Waiting in vein,
Just waiting for you
To come to realization
But I'm stuck in a home invasion
Cause you built your new home on my corpse

Breadcrumb Trail

You can't suffer
from what you do not know
So to ever achieve happiness
I need the brain level of a crow

Fly, fly away
Then just sit there and wait
For Hans & Greta to lay out the way

Composition

Drowning in oceans of regret
I can never ever forgive or forget
I'm so lost in abandonment
Every hour is just another instrument
I've got a bow now, and a violin to play
A beautiful last composition of a star shining away
There ain't no way out of here
I'll cut my way out of here

Let Me Be

There are so many things that I'll never see
And if things go my way, I will never be
Let me be, let me be
Protect yourself by guarding me
Is it fair that you can leave?
But I'm stuck here on my knees
Begging you, baby, please
I need you to believe
There's nothing left to need
I am nothing, so I'll proceed
I'll be nothing, I won't breathe
Goodbye, my darling, my belief

Tear Ducts

Staying afloat in a leaking ship
It's so easy, you say, just get a grip
Trying to sail through the eye of the storm
At least, you say, it can't go any more wrong
You say I am tough but it's never enough
I'll be swimming against currents in these tear ducts
Forever after, forever young
I'll be drowning hereafter in the setting sun